I don't work, I am not caring, I never devote my love... What kind of man am I?

I need some wisdom...

People are reading... but no one wanna give any wisdom..

What kind of man do you think you are??

no idea...
my mind went blank recently....
thats y i need some wisdom

sigh........

b....

y sigh?

are you ( or is your father ) rich enough to support your living?

who cares what kind of man u r, just do the best on your own.

Jason replied @ 2009-08-17 12:13 pm

b....

y sigh?

--

nothing, u working?

maybe you are just lacking of motives, lacking of love...

and lacking of life force energy, at this moment.

when you re-charge after the rest at this moment, you will be energetic again. :-)

rich family? probably not...

but i am survivor financial wise.

positive....
i dont care about what other people think...
i am at a point where i dont know who i am and what i am....

anyone has the wisdom to open up my window?

am i ignored? :-(

Jason

If you are from a rich family, " who am I? " would be a philosophical question. That's why I asked u first.
My second question is: what do you want most ?

It is sometimes good to think of nothing.

But if you stay jobless and not being able to care for or feel/ give love to others, umm~ that might something you have to think about after the long break you have given to yourself. ^^

迷失方向及自己係好恐怖既感覺.版主不如見見 counseling.公益金既 counseling 係會以收入而定收費的.

b... obviously not working

thats y i have time to come up at this time to think of who i am...
i do realise that in HK its a luxuary to sit down and think about who u really are..

I always think when someone wants something, he/she will figure out some ways to achieve it. Those things that person does then will shape his/ her peronalities lor.

are you telling us you want nothing at this moment?

Alison, u r quite right in some sense.

but wheres the plug? i dont see any sockets in my life for recharging...

Alison

Alison replied @ 2009-08-17 12:20 pm

maybe you are just lacking of motives, lacking of love...
and lacking of life force energy, at this moment.

when you re-charge after the rest at this moment, you will be energetic again. :-)

ur theory about when u want something, u'll figure out a way to get it...

perhaps missing one word. --- want enough

Just like any man, i want money, but i dont bothers to send out CV
i want power, but i choose not to take up position
i want sex, but wouldnt bother to walk 10 minutes down the hill to LKF to find girls...

Because i dont want these things enough.....

I want something that make me want things enough to go and fight for it

Heymyqueen has suggested the best way!

to sharp your life (plug) ...

before nothing the way to drive through to the destination, isnt deciding the destination the most important of all? no one can tell you where to go, you should think of it first and then decide the route. :-)

Alison....

destination is not what i want...
from a very young age.... i realise that every human being, every living thing has one final destination.. its call ... death...

and between birth and death... i can b exciting... or empty.,....
and right now.. i m living the empty way.....

it might be a sad thing... that i don't fall in love..
nor do i fight for jobs and promotion...

my life is empty.. my mind is empty..

Jason, maybe shifting materials aside, decide what kinda perosn you want to be.

having such a life like now makes you happy and content, then enjoy it the way you are now.

可能係因為你的"I do not care".

你的得來容易.

你試下去研究下咩叫"珍惜".

都市人都在尋找"What you do not have",

你已經得到你想得到的. 但你本來擁有的都因為你不懂珍惜而失去了.

所以you lost now. What you want actually ?

珍惜係要你珍惜"What you have" 當你學懂珍惜. 你會變得充實.

But this topic is not easy for human being.

sorry for my wrong pick of word, it's not the final destination, i mean check point in life.

and you mind couldnt be empty, unless you are a 40 yrs meditator and you are all content with your life. if your case, i dont think it's the case.

you still want to find someway out (if this thread is not a joke, although i believe so, hahaha), that means you still want something. who could tell what do you want in life?

barbiedollhk

I think you don't need wisdom but pills. Obviously you know what you want but just don't have the motivation to grab it. So what's holding you back? Depression. Go see a shrink and ask to do an assessment. You might have to be on antidepressant medications. I would bet there are a lot more dire symptoms than what you have mentioned above.

Heads up ! 10% of victims of depression end up in suicides.

i dont consider myself as happy, nor sad..... emotionless.....

who i want to b?
someone with the wealth of Bill gate,
the intellegent of albert einstine
the health of a 18 yrs old

but when u cant even be asked to send out a CV...
thats a problem

you need something physical.... go plow a field, climb a mountain, run the dessert, ... whatever that makes you sweat and exhausted physically.... or just starve yourself for 3 days or 10 days if 3 days doesnt help...

pills?

thats not me......
if i need pills to get me back on the running track? i am in deep trouble...

i was very aggressive in the past...
i reject the statement that i've been getting things too easily as some have said here.
i am no where near a point where i am starving to death and need to fight for survival

the biggest problem is.... I recongise "I", but I no longer bothers with my own future...

I know perfectly what i want, and the steps to reach there...
but I couldnt help myself to make the steps...

depression.... thanks for this thought... this idea puts a smile on my face.

Simple

You're S C U M

girl,

say what u like....
sometimes i wish someone would scold at me or slap me in the face to wake me up...
but i am getting desensitised

rain...

i've tried.... i loved hiking before...
perhaps if i am at Wong SHek right now i might take a walk...
but just dont have the motivation to pack my bag for it.

Well, Jason. While you may reject pills, emotional/psychological health are as important as physical health. A gentler approach maybe to see a counselor. It helps to have a trained professional who is not a friend / family member to help you reach the root of your problems and most counseling services are very confidential.

maybe you dont have any problem at all...?

not wanting anything is not a problem

I've been to counsellor before....
but too much time has been spend on getting me to talk,
or just me talking.,....

I dont feel any difference afterward...
nor see any progress

Alison

it is a problem
because i know very well that its not me......

barbiedollhk

Go seek professional help. Unlike HK people are ashamed to confront mental disabilities due to the fact that people with this problem faces extreme prejudice. In the west seeking counseling and or a psychiatrist is very common and socially acceptable.

Whatever is clicking inside you is a time bomb. Defuse it before it blows. Good luck

barbiedollhk

The problem could be spiritually related. Wether you believe in the paranormal or not, it is wise not to delete all options. Ever thought you could be possessed by an evil spirit that is wrecking havoc in your head ?

Seek out a Priest.

I dont see this as a time bomb.
instead... i realise this is slowing eating away my energy and my life.....

if its anything shocking, i'd have dealt with it immediately...

i have thought about the spiritual issue.

cos sometimes i realise my face smile when i dont want to....
i've visited some temples and churches recently....
but nothing changed

Well, best of luck, mate. I'll keep you in my prayers. You have a very tough road ahead of you.

(this is spiritual, if you are not into it, just skip it)

if your recent depression comes from nowhere, it could be the energy level of your surrondings that causes it. i mean, everything is energy being, we pick up energy from the surrondings, maybe negative thinking family memebers or colleagues....

go to the outlying island for a day and get some sun. sunlight would raise the energy level. :-)

thanks,,,

so a couple of hours went past....
no wisdom to be found....

the only thing that i havent tried is pills

barbiedollhk

Good so you are onto some leads. Merely visiting a church is not going to help you cast out whatever is in you. You have to seek out the priest and go through some biblical precedures 'in faith'. The higher power only menifest his power once it dwells in you and through you but NOT through the building structures.

Sorry I don't believe in temples. They are but empty shells cooked up with incense that would only give you lung cancer. My 2 cents worth

alison

oh this sunlight idea i havent tried before
but shouldn't outlying island contains alot of negative energy aswell?

energy level of the nature is the highest of all, and it's the closet to the level to your higher self inside. :-)

if this thread is not a joke, i can send you Reiki energy tonight... see if your energy level raise. :-)

u mean just walked into a church and ask the cleaner were i could get help?

wisdom is for those who deserve it

obviously, you're not

barbiedollhk

Jaison - that ought to do the trick. Services rendered are free of charge. He will show you the way.